There's a Ghost in the Machine.

I only blog for myself. As I grow up I lose contact with a lot of my friends and when they ask me what have I been doing? I simply tell them to check here. As for those of you who don't know me, My name is Ayman. I'm a 19 year old near Toronto. Oh yeah and I'm trying to "figure out life" just like everyone else on tumblr.

I figured out why I feel so happy to be alive and why I posted that weird post before. It's because I havnt seen daylight for 6-7 days till now. The trees are still dead but the sky is alive.

What was it that I used to say…

Smile at the sky.

And suddenly it hit me.

The frost on the windows of the bus. The snow on every tree, every sidewalk, every home. My feet were wet so I was busy making a fus. Until I realized there’s winter all around me. Its finally here. I guess it’s great.

A pretty girl even came and sat next to me. Too bad she smells of cancersticks. Either way, what I’m trying to say is. I’m so glad to be back in this reality. In this moment that actually exists. I’ve been living behind textbooks and study guides for the last day. I even slep at school on a bench for a bit, not going home.

Now I’m living and it’s great.